Two days ago, my teacher had a session and he called it cut the middle man. These words got me thinking. Does he mean cut him out? Go straight to source. My teacher says, don’t hold onto the finger pointing to the moon, look directly at the moon. When he told me this a month ago, I wasn’t ready to hear it. Today. I think I am ready or at least I assume I am. Will you ever feel completely ready to let go of everything? Maybe not, but then sometimes you aren’t given a choice. And so as I was disappointed that the sessions with my teacher are ending, I also felt a certain freedom. Freedom to finally see the light at the end of tunnel not with the help of his guidance this time but on my own. Use my own inner light to see that everything is going to work out just fine, on my own with or without anyone by my side.
I wrote this piece, the day of the last class with my teacher.
There comes a time in your life where no teacher, no teaching, no friend, no family member, no parent, no partner can help you with your inner turmoil. You have tried it all. You have used all these different people at different times in your life, but this time they aren’t working. And don’t get me wrong they all have their place but there comes a time where none of them will be able to help you. And even if for a moment they can give you some sort of solace, peace, show you some love, you will soon be left where you started so then you realize the only person who can help you is yourself. But then that’s not helping you. You write, you reflect on what’s hurting, you run, you hide, you distract yourself, you laugh, you cry, you do it all. Nothing seems to be helping. You immerse yourself in different activities, you start working on projects, listen to different perspectives, find more answers, but nothing is quenching your thirst. What is missing here? What is the puzzle piece that’s missing here? What aspect have you not looked at?
I’ll tell you what I think it is. Because I have reached this point in my life, not once, not twice but many times till I learn this damn lesson, it keeps showing up in my life again and again and again.
Soaking myself in the name of the lord. It can be anyone. It can be Krishna, Buddha, Sai Baba, Guru Nanak, Jesus, or Allah. We knew this all along right. Whats so new in this? Then why don’t we go straight to source? Why do we look at everyone else but this one place? When I say look here, I mean dive in, I mean soak yourself, I mean immerse yourself, I mean drown, yes literally drown. Go all in. Die to him. Not some half hearted job but all of you, give all of you to this one goal, and for sometime forget that you have anyone else to support you in your situation/crises. There is only you and the Lord. These two opposing forces will give you your much needed peace. It won’t give you the answers but it will give you the peace that you need. Eventually, as you keep doing this, day after day, month after month, year after year, nothing can bother you, nothing will trigger you, nothing will sadden you, nothing will excite you, you and him, you and the Lord will become one. You’re inseparable. You will come to the realization that you’re God. You’re what you were searching for. You’re your greatest treasure that you were searching for all along elsewhere. Once you find it, safeguard this treasure like you would if you actually found a Diamond. Yes, a Diamond. You’re unbreakable, unshakeable, flawless, internally flawless, all you have to do to truly know this is to get under your microscopic lens and really look, really look hard. You’re internally flawless. You’re God. You’re all you ever needed.
Lots of Love,
Miss Light
Lightrosh 